The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Episode 14

                The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills “Malibu Beach Party From Hell” Clip

             “CELEBRITY REHAB 5 WRAP UP” WEBISODE WITH JENNIFER GIMENEZ

I’ve been bat s### crazy lately… I feel like a robot just going… I’ve been uplifted by ur love and encouragement…last week I did so much…I went to an event where USHER performed and it was fun…I did tv shows…podcasts…webisodes…interviews…business meetings/dinners/lunches,fittings, oh jeez and the list goes on…oh and then there’s somewhat of my personal life like gym, spending time w my mom,brother, little MICKEY,12 step meetings and seeing a couple of my friends…working w my sponsies, working thru my …well…. growing pains… it feels like the flood gates of all these new emotions are opening up…good and bad. I’m growing up…

I must say I’m losing alot of hair, got a terrible eye twitch(which I found out is from stress) , my face is breaking out like a 13 yr old boy hitting puberty, my voice goes in and out from exhaustion and I’m getting grays…I feel like I’m getting wrinkles and need toothpicks for my eyes… ya not so HOT….this too shall pass…it’s kinda hysterical to me at this point….

this week started crazy and ended cray …. I’m honestly goin’ 100mph…I did “ISSUES W JANE VALEZ MITCHELL”on Mon on HLN, more interviews this wk , I also did DR.DREW SHOW on HLN on Wed which was super AWESOME , did a few CANADIAN TV/TALK NEWS SHOWS, did live RADIO, ON CAMERA GREEN SCREEN SHOOTS, met w my MANAGER MARKI COSTELLO who ROCKS , vh1 Blogs, other blogs, did other TV SHOW, SPENT SOME TIME W friends like  BRANDI GLANVILLE AND TATUM ONEAL,SAW MY MAMA AND BROTHER AND LITTLE  MICKERZ , went to CHURCH, 12 step meetings, committments,GYM ,EVENTS, AND SOOOOOO SOOO SOOOO MUCH MORE… THIS WEEK WENT SO DAMN FAST I MEAN SUPER FAST I ALSO WENT TO DR’s WHO SAID I HAD LOST EVEN MORE WEIGHT …guess that’s good… I am eating and last 2 day’s somewhat slept… today I went to the gym then swam for 2 1/2 hrs which was so nice it was me and DEXTER a dog I’m watching he is soooo sweet… I love where I am this last wk…..tomorrow is a big day… I have CELEBRITY REHAB EPISODE 6 ON VH1 AT 9PM THEN AT 10PM I’M ON MY GOOD FRIEND TATUM ONEALS SHOW ON OWN NETWORK, which I haven’t seen so I’m a little nervous… but let me tell u this as I was in treatment 6 yrs. ago OPRAH gave me hope, at one point I was going to send her a letter asking her if I could go intern for her and share my experience of who I was and what I did…I never got the courage to go through with it- but she encouraged me as I’m sure she encourages the world…I had to save my life …I would pass out to meet her and here I am about to be on her NETWORK… miracles do exist…..OMG OMG OMG… I know that I sound like a geek , but I am, and I’m so grateful for my life today…

I know people are emailing me, tweeting and posting to me to “slow down” but u only have one life and this is my time right now to BE IN MY REALITY THAT I  ONLY HAD DREAMED OF BEFORE…SEIZE MY OPPORTUNITY, WHERE I GO THERE I AM….

I must say this week I cried a lot … sometimes in my car and I had alot of panic attacks cuz I am breaking old ways of thinking… for instance-that I’m not enough etc…the old ways of what was, no longer has to be in my life today…..the crying to me is healthy because I was told tears are signs of my soul and spirit healing….in the midst of my being a personality and image I am my true JENN self and I share that as I go thru it w my confidants and U as well… they tell me it’s ok to be me and that I must be going thru so much inwardly and they are here for me…at the same time I am holding it together while I go in a public arena…sometimes they (my friends and family) hugging me is ENOUGH…. I yearn for my loved ones to touch me it’s so soothing to me… and I’m saying  that in a loving & nurturing way….the human hand-touch is so powerful…well I’m off to bed cuz it’s a big day for me… I’m doing a few hrs. of me time in early am…. I’m taking myself out on a date… to the balcony to write, have some coffee then a swim and my nails did time, cuz I destroyed them from all the  stress, then off to work…. I LOVE U DEARLY…U are helping me HEAL  xoxooxoxo

It’s 2:40 am Sun morning but since I just got home I posted this  for Sat… because today (Sun) brings a whole new day,venture and life experience…

I stayed the last few nites w my POCKETSIZE, AMY(who by the way let me know shes 5’4 ,she’s so tiny to me cuz of her little frame that I’ll still call it 5’1 grrrrrr)… I woke up today around noon …. was that tired …. we can exhaust ourselves not only  physically, but emotionally and mentally and have no idea that we’ve completely drained ourselves…I had only 20 mins to get myself together and go speak at a womans AA meeting… I have to say womens meetings rock…as scared as I used to be around women, they save my life…I have these gorgeous goddess’s in my life who I am connected to and I just love love love u…my girl AUNG who has entered my life over a year ago and I am grateful for her…she’s loving ,kind, sensitive ,caring, generous and has my back, as I have hers….she’s very special to me, my sweet LUFFZ…it’s super cute how much she cares that we have some discussions (is a nice way of putting it) about how much she worries about me…I do appreciate it…grrrrrrr I love her … she has showed up for me constantly…

then I have my godma of a mentor PATTY BARET, we call each other bubbs… she is one of my towers that I lean on for guidance and direction… oh how she is a life line for me… I’m honored to have her in my life… I can be childlike around her and be completely open and vulnerable around her… she nourishes me back to health all the time… she never went back on her word and has my back as well….what a gift…

after my meeting I went back to AMY’s and I had an hr to just relax so I went to her back yard wrote ,read and just took some sun for 40 mins… it was really beautiful to just be in that moment…I found myself really happy with being w ME…I got ready cuz I was asked to shoot a show w my bestie BRANDI GLANVILLE again… I found myself a bit blocked w the kind of look I was going to go w so AMY came to the rescue and her being  such an amazing creator and stylist, mama got to whipping my look into shape… she’s really got a gift … her eye and talent is so inspiring… she’s really a true artist… I was going to a “White Party” but I felt the need to find ala circa of some sort and we (she) did!

one of the gifts thru the last few months has been spending quality time w my friends… BRANDI and I hung out for a bit and talked then off we went to her party, thats all I’m really allowed to say about this job… we took pictures and I posted a few up ( BRANDI AND CAMILLE GRAMMER & I) but will post more up on twitter and fb soon…its the moments that make it all the worth wild for me, like this one, as we were coming home we were grubbing on fatburger from the party laughing our bellys off like 2 little girls in the car, our conversations were killing us as we were choking on the choking while laughing soooo hard… we definitely left a trail in that poor town car…

today is FATHERS DAY so to all those wonderful men out there HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!! If ur a father, grandfather, brother, son, provider, teacher, role model or mentor to anyone out there, know u are loved and adored … thank u for making a difference to the world around u…

i just wrote over 300 words and i accidentally deleted the whole thing!!!!!! so i guess this is all im suppose to write tonight…

ok ill just write whatever comes to my mind…

JENN H i was laughing when i couldnt sleep last nite and i started accepting friends on fb and BOOM , there u were asking me what i was doing up… i had to sneak the phone down low on my side of the bed and touch the key pads slowly cuz if i do it loudly i will get caught by TOM…its as if i was being a bad child… i was secretly giggling …

this last weekend i was suppose to do EMMY parties and events all weekend but  on fri evening i started having this terrible pain in my bladder and i ended up on sat in the hospital for 9 hours…i passed a kidney stone,a bladder infection,suffering from dehydration and a TERRIBLE migraine…ya fun times…TOM was such a champ and hung in there with me for all those hours when i woke up sunday i had that damn migraine back and it wouldnt go away…i spent most of my day at doctors office today…im just friggin falling apart…im physically worn down and in pain…

my days are normally super long and super busy but im wearing down….

can i tell u a secret????? i love pickle juice!!!! is that wierd…

definitely need to get my hair cut ,just a tad bit…its been over 4 months now and ive fried the hell out of it this summer with all the bleaching and when i work i always have people doing,pulling,teasing,ironing,blow drying etc etc my poor hair…my girl DEB B hooked me up with the best shampoo and conditioner and hair oil from NEIL GEORGE…omg its amazing…thank u mamas…im in love…

alright im getting tired guys…so little sleep these days….hope u have a great right now