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As she did last season, house manager Jennifer Gimenez is set to give us her weekly take on each episode of Sober House with Dr. Drew. Below, Jenn talks about the fourth episode of the show, which chronicled what she refers to as “one of the craziest nights of my existence…”

One thing we didn’t go over regarding last week’s episode was a stray shot of Tom Sizemore with what looked like tubing tied around his arm in his apartment. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me, but then I saw that so many people noticed that online.

Everybody asked me about that. That was kind of weird. I actually rewound it a couple times. When he returned, honestly he tested negative and I retested him the next day, as well. Also, there were no track marks on him. When they run off and throw tantrums and then come back, you really kind of want to assess them, and look at them and look at their arms and their nose and, you know, smell their breath and all that stuff, and he passed. That made it extra weird, but I don’t know. I wasn’t there.

The first thing that happens on this episode is that everyone shares their essays. Many of them, like Mike and Dennis did not take this assignment seriously.

When they were reading them, I was biting my tongue, trying not laugh. At the end of the day, I can’t tell them what to do, I can’t force them. At this point, I got Dennis to give me his phone and to actually write the essay and follow direction. It was like, “Wo,  I think I’ve earned some respect here…to the best of his ability…for that moment.” At least he was willing to do some work even if it was just, “Why” 150 times…

And getting Mike to do anything was a miracle. He’s constantly saying he’s sick and saying his arm hurts, that’s why he can’t write. Then he saw everyone else was doing it, and that’s the thing with Mike. I think that he heard Kari Ann punched the camera guy, so he thought he could get away with hitting one. He follows everyone else in the house. As for Tom, he wrote this thing saying how his recovery came first, and soon after, he decided to throw a fit. It’s like, two seconds later, he’s trying to throw a vase at me. It shows just how explosive Tom is all the time. Here you start seeing how crazy Tom really is.

So he was telling you that he’s done with the show and that you have to give him his phone back. You knew this was just a ploy, right?

Yes. He said he was going to call the cops, but he handed over the phone to me. Also, there was a house phone literally in that living room area that we could all use. He could have asked me to use my phone. Tom wanted it his way and if he doesn’t get it his way he explodes. I’m going to get angry over that.

He left and came back. No surprise there, right?

No. It wasn’t like this was the first time he had left, either. Plus, I know how is Tom from being in treatment with him. I knew how explosive he is. He’s not going to scare me any more than anyone else in that house at that point. What was he going to? I think he wanted me to get crazy.

Here’s something that was a surprise: Mike went out on a search for “Thai food,” and ended up coming back to the house clean.

He was lucky that he didn’t get his “Thai food.” That’s a big thing that a lot of addicts have: they have code words for drugs and it was really sad to see that he was willing to go to any lengths to try to get them. He came back and was very aggressive. But the thing is that Mike was constantly in my face telling me he hated me, he was going to kill me, he was going to do this and that. So Mike being aggressive wasn’t exactly out of character. Then he came back, fighting us about taking the test, shutting the door in Will’s face. He did ultimately test negative, which was such a relief at the moment because there was so much insanity going on. Heidi had just come back from Nevada and was like, “Oh, I can’t pee yet,” and I knew something was wrong. There was so much tension in the house. It was a full moon that night and everything just started exploding at 7 or 8 and didn’t stop. I swear to you, I don’t know how that night turned out OK. I don’t know how no one got hurt that night. It was so crazy. At that moment, I was in survival mode.

Speaking of Heidi, there was more drama between her and Tom.

They were antagonizing each other constantly and it was maddening at that moment. They are both fighting and they are both yelling that they are going to leave. They were throwing tantrums while everyone upstairs was freaking out. I was playing ref.

And then, of course, Heidi did test positive. Did you think it was strange that she was smiling when you informed her you found amphetamines, opiates and benzos in her pee?

That smile was maybe her defense mechanism of how she was kind of bummed out that she did that. Her disease got the best of her. It was either a smile of embarrassment, like, “What am I supposed to do? I f***ed up,” or, at that point, the disease was really in Heidi. The disease took over. Really, when she got into it with Tom last episosde, I saw Heidi’s hope in recovery just diminish. And it’s really hard to get that back.

And the thing that just obliterates movie night is the fight that Tom and Mike have.

Tom was saying that he was tired of hearing Mike treat me like s***. I mean, everybody was. What you guys don’t see is how Mike treated me like s*** the whole entire time. There were maybe five minutes out of that day that he didn’t go off on me. And it’s kind of hard to be around that all the time. But also they were just trying to get better, and Tom just lost it. He literally was so angry that I think he deflected the anger that was coming between him and Heidi onto Mike. There was also some animosity between Mike and Tom. Tom would make side remarks like, “God, he’s getting on my nerves.” I told him to pay attention to himself, and obviously in this case he didn’t. That really was one of the craziest nights of my existence. And it was madness every single day. I feel at that moment it was no longer the Sober House, it was the recovery house. There were so many other things that people were recovering from, and so many things were going on, and so many more internal things and emotional things and issues that were being brought to the forefront. I’ve never seen so much unrelenting chaos in a house.

Did you start to feel like you were going crazy?

Yeah. I broke down that night, alone. If I lost it in front of the group, then they all would have lost it. They were literally all looking at me, staring. There were no words being said by anybody, so I had to just say calm and be like, “You’re gonna be fine.” I don’t know if Mother Teresa would have been able to keep her sanity that night

I will be hosting Loveline with Dr.Drew tonight check your local listings or go to www.lovelineshow.com for live streaming…….

XOXOXOX Jenn

boy ive been a bundle of tears today…i havent cried i mean really cried in so long…so today it just pored out… i feel like a lot of “new ” things are going on in my life…ive been traveling so much lately, i actually like it ,being in different cities … except ive been around a hell of a lot of people  and at times it gets to me … i call it  wearing the mask syndrome…( smile here, be nice there, look like this , say that) …i just dont believe the b.s of it all…and after a while i wonder if people would just like me for me ( the real me)…maybe if i wasnt so tired today i wouldnt be such a debbie downer , jeez…i was recently in “Miami” … i have to say it was a magical experience for me… im hoping i can go back there and kinda make it a home away from home place…or…just keep working there … i miss my “Miami”

…like i said before so many new things are happenin in my life and im just trying to show up for it all… i have to say i suck ass real bad i kept saying i was goin to start bloggin but these days the way life is for me if i have my shoes on as i leave out the door every morning its a lucky day , so getting on the computer is a miracle when it happens …i promised quite a few people that i would blog more often and i didnt keep my word …. i dont like empty promises so sorry….mickey is so cute right now he is kissin me and sitting on my neck like a parrot this little guy is such a trip with his crazy personality u just never know what to expect well…. he always is a loving mamas boy its kinda riduclous we were out earlier and he was into just makin out and anytime people touched him he would take a deep breath and start kissin me ….like a possesive boyfriend… i loved it !!!!!!!!!!!

its been a little over a month and a half since i wrapped SOBER HOUSE 2… i have to say that this time around there was a greater growing  experience for me… i learned more about the disease of alcoholism and addiction… more about compassion,patience,anger,my body,exercise,sleep depervation,saddness,frustration,happiness,joy,the ability to push thru,accomplishment,being of sevice,tolerance and most important love …this group of courageous men and women were very sharp,intelligent,witty,kind,scared,loving sweet and tender souls…i have to say i was kept on my toes most of the time…This disease of alcohol and drugs is deadly and really isnt a joke it wants us dead…Thank You cast Dennis,Heidi,Tom,Mike,Seth,Jenny,Kendra and Kerrie Anne…i would like to Thank Dr.Drew, John Irwin,Damien Sullivan,Bob Forrest,VH1,Dr.Sophy,Will,Loesha, Noah Pollack,Bruce Toms,Rob Buchta,Alison ,Mark J,Patrick,Louie,Stephanie,Mark P,J.R ,and the crew ,CREW CREW CREW(for being my nightly rock and sense of reality)….also Tom , Sponsor, Rachel and Alec for taking care of me while i was at war!!!…i know it sounds like a lot  of people to thank but it took all our sweat, gutts and tears to do this show…

oh the days of spending quality time with my family was starting to weigh on me… i got the opportunity this weekend…. life has been very full for me the last 9 months … with that said i’m certainly not complaining…. i’m living my dreams today …. i do have to find the balance cuz i just go go go and then i get sick and its like God doing for me what i cant yet seem to balance… balance! ha!!!!i took my ma and godmother along with Tom to the beach Saturday and Sun it was me and the girls to Venice Beach Ca…the boardwalk jeez i wanted to scream i personally dont like so many people in one place…. i did take the ladies to Sidewalk Cafe and i watched the people perform and own their space… people call them crazy but i was in awe of ther prescense,as this band performed Jeff  Buckleys “Hallelujah” and this woman who really loved her moves just danced and i think she might perform with them alot… i couldnt get my eyes off them…. the courage that they had… kinda fasinating to me…well now i’m sick , probably just runned down….i’,m honestly glad i dont use anymore… it really has thrown me off poor DJ AM dying…. i am so sad for everyone who knew him and his poor family… he was an incredible man…i just think man that could be me … those “just one more times” us in recovery say …. i have said that time and time again, my relapses…i’m just grateful 3 yrs &7 months & 23 days  ago my life began healing and i havent had to use or drink since… its just a miracle how lucky i am to have breath… its just so nice to have a grin on my face knowing at this very moment im ok !!!

Well this my first post via blackberry… I hope it goes thru correct…I tried to toast a bagel this morning and of course I burnt it! I am running around L.A doing work stuff and seem to be trying to just be in the moment but today my head is loud. I don’t know about u but I allow so much nonsense to get in my own way. I,in writing am asking God to come into the picture and my NOW and to please carry me thru this day! Inga from random talk radio called me out on my blogging and I’ve lagged for a while, Thank You girl for calling me out on it. I lag no longer. I so enjoyed doing that interview. So much has happened in the last month and a half and I will talk about my experience a bit later. How life just happens and how amazing to be present to see it thru. Its amazing to me that NO MATTER what we get thru it. I have missed this xoxo

JENNIFER GIMENEZ is back on RANDOM TALK RADIO! Tune in to hear JENNIFER dish out details about her new hit show MODEL LATINA & the upcoming SOBER HOUSE 2! She is back and is BETTER THAN EVER! You can’t miss this show! 

TONIGHT I WILL BE ON BLOGTALK RADIO @ 7PM  PST 10PM EST ….PLEASE LISTEN IF U CAN …..

today is a good day… i am enough today… that is what i will be saying all day….no matter what comes my way … i  had a great day yesterday… i woke up thanking God for life… mickey looks so happy today …he is in his pajamas ,which he loves so much… he gets so excited when i say lets put them on … i enjoying going to bed everynite knowing i will torture Tom with everything that could possibly bug a man , like putting my fingers in his ears,nose, biting his neck,putting my hands over his face, wrapping my legs like a rubberband on his, tapping my feet,pinching his belly and tossing and turning…wow on paper that doesnt sound so HOT but its me and God bless the man he loves me … i saw my little brother last nite and it made me so happy …and saw my mama during the day inbetween all the madness i face day to day and what a gift to have that…. i wish for u the gift of laughter today…..

I AM DOING A RADIO TALK SHOW THIS FRIDAY MAY 29TH …………………………………………………….            STRONGER THAN LIFE.                                                                                                                                                                                                           

JENNIFER GIMENEZ has accomplished a lot through out her life time so far. From modeling and acting, to addiction and recovery, she has battled and overcome the many obstacles that have been thrown her way. She has learned from her mistakes and has moved on to better her life, her career & other peoples lives as well. She is not only doing it to help others, she is doing it to help herself. And in my opinion, that makes her STRONGER THAN LIFE.
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