so thrus of last week i went bike riding to the post office …thinking i was a car i made a left hand turn into the post office with my mail in my mouth i turn … “oh how cute i am “, ” look at me im a car!!!”…  im turning to go into the drive thru like all the other cars… there are 2 cars in front of me and 10 behind me…what happens next is only something that could only be seen in a comedy movie…i start wobbeling , i start losing control and BOOM!!!!!!!!!!! i fall !!!! not only do i fall but im about to hit a poll so i pull my body more to one side so i could avoid it! i land in a bush with MUD all over my hair,face, mouth, body, clothes shoes and bike on top of me… i am mortified so i start wiping myself off and 5 cars behind me pulls over this lady who asks me if im ok and i reply “ya i cant believe i just fell its been decades since i fell off a bike”… she replies”oh my im glad ur ok but to have had to fall in front of all these cars and people , u must be so embarrassed’ … i couldnt look at her anymore … hello i was more than embarrassed…i got up and waited for the cars to pass and called TOM and was dying… i did end up going thru the drive thru though… i am still covered in sooooooo many bruises its unbelievable….and am so sore… oh man what a fool i was… we live and learn… im being a baby to TOM and DARLENE about it cuz you know, i want some compassion… a friend of mine i call “CHIEF” asked DARLENE if i was an athlete in high school or college? ummmmm i didnt go to school but 2 months out of the year cuz i was busy working as a SUPER MODEL!!!!!!!! and no college yet… so “NO” im not nor was i ever an athlete … but now i am going to be DAMN IT!!!! first i must over come my clumsiness

my weekend was great… i worked out everyday last week but rested sunday… even though i was sore i listened to DARLENE… today i ended up doing 7.5 miles of cardio and trained with the boss for an hour… she now has me burning 3000 caleries a day … i have the “bug” on so its all logged…i ended up burning 3322 calories and took 15569 steps today as well… i had to do 45 minutes more of cardio tonight to burn more caloriesl… DARLENE  might get mad that i didnt eat enough… this morning i had whey protien, yogurt and a banana shake/ for lunch i had 1/2 a salad/  and tonight a protien bar…. see for me i feel its alot but DARLENE doesnt feel that way… im about to get introuble tomorrow…

i am training early then i have to do pick ups/reshoots for SOBER HOUSE 2 … and inbetween i have a lot of work to do for other projects…i have a busy i mean busy week!  

i miss some of my friends i havent seen for a while … that doesnt mean i dont think of you often though xoxoxoxo

my mama isnt feeling  well again… ill i can do is just be there for her and im pray

boy ive been a bundle of tears today…i havent cried i mean really cried in so long…so today it just pored out… i feel like a lot of “new ” things are going on in my life…ive been traveling so much lately, i actually like it ,being in different cities … except ive been around a hell of a lot of people  and at times it gets to me … i call it  wearing the mask syndrome…( smile here, be nice there, look like this , say that) …i just dont believe the b.s of it all…and after a while i wonder if people would just like me for me ( the real me)…maybe if i wasnt so tired today i wouldnt be such a debbie downer , jeez…i was recently in “Miami” … i have to say it was a magical experience for me… im hoping i can go back there and kinda make it a home away from home place…or…just keep working there … i miss my “Miami”

…like i said before so many new things are happenin in my life and im just trying to show up for it all… i have to say i suck ass real bad i kept saying i was goin to start bloggin but these days the way life is for me if i have my shoes on as i leave out the door every morning its a lucky day , so getting on the computer is a miracle when it happens …i promised quite a few people that i would blog more often and i didnt keep my word …. i dont like empty promises so sorry….mickey is so cute right now he is kissin me and sitting on my neck like a parrot this little guy is such a trip with his crazy personality u just never know what to expect well…. he always is a loving mamas boy its kinda riduclous we were out earlier and he was into just makin out and anytime people touched him he would take a deep breath and start kissin me ….like a possesive boyfriend… i loved it !!!!!!!!!!!

its been a little over a month and a half since i wrapped SOBER HOUSE 2… i have to say that this time around there was a greater growing  experience for me… i learned more about the disease of alcoholism and addiction… more about compassion,patience,anger,my body,exercise,sleep depervation,saddness,frustration,happiness,joy,the ability to push thru,accomplishment,being of sevice,tolerance and most important love …this group of courageous men and women were very sharp,intelligent,witty,kind,scared,loving sweet and tender souls…i have to say i was kept on my toes most of the time…This disease of alcohol and drugs is deadly and really isnt a joke it wants us dead…Thank You cast Dennis,Heidi,Tom,Mike,Seth,Jenny,Kendra and Kerrie Anne…i would like to Thank Dr.Drew, John Irwin,Damien Sullivan,Bob Forrest,VH1,Dr.Sophy,Will,Loesha, Noah Pollack,Bruce Toms,Rob Buchta,Alison ,Mark J,Patrick,Louie,Stephanie,Mark P,J.R ,and the crew ,CREW CREW CREW(for being my nightly rock and sense of reality)….also Tom , Sponsor, Rachel and Alec for taking care of me while i was at war!!!…i know it sounds like a lot  of people to thank but it took all our sweat, gutts and tears to do this show…

Its just been an odd time for me the last 10 days or so … first I finished a big project and 2 days later I got sick… It was my first time off in months and I was wiped out ,exhausted and run down… Then i got depressed… I also got to feel my true feelings about stuff… Loss was a big factor realizing my dads birthday was just around the corner… This year I missed him and i was trying to remember if we had certain conversations and I could’t…Man just writing that makes me sad…Its o.k  someday I may be able too remember or just have that talk with my dad… I’ll be really honest I MISS MY DAD AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO GET 30 SECONDS  WITH HIM, but the truth of the matter is my dads in heaven now …well needless to say I started realizing I havent been taking care of myself and thankfully i have tools in life on how to cope… sometimes I have to hit my head over and over again to finally realize it hurts… Im still sick now this virus is in my throat… this too shall pass… Its a new week and i believe that its a new dawn and I had some lessons to learn and to experience these new feelings such as loss in a different way this time… On another note the show I’m on Model Latina is still airing on SiTV @pm EST/PST … It was kinda hard for me to be so judgemental on these beautiful ,courages and inspiring women…

Let me know if u do watch it and what u think xoxooxox

oh the days of spending quality time with my family was starting to weigh on me… i got the opportunity this weekend…. life has been very full for me the last 9 months … with that said i’m certainly not complaining…. i’m living my dreams today …. i do have to find the balance cuz i just go go go and then i get sick and its like God doing for me what i cant yet seem to balance… balance! ha!!!!i took my ma and godmother along with Tom to the beach Saturday and Sun it was me and the girls to Venice Beach Ca…the boardwalk jeez i wanted to scream i personally dont like so many people in one place…. i did take the ladies to Sidewalk Cafe and i watched the people perform and own their space… people call them crazy but i was in awe of ther prescense,as this band performed Jeff  Buckleys “Hallelujah” and this woman who really loved her moves just danced and i think she might perform with them alot… i couldnt get my eyes off them…. the courage that they had… kinda fasinating to me…well now i’m sick , probably just runned down….i’,m honestly glad i dont use anymore… it really has thrown me off poor DJ AM dying…. i am so sad for everyone who knew him and his poor family… he was an incredible man…i just think man that could be me … those “just one more times” us in recovery say …. i have said that time and time again, my relapses…i’m just grateful 3 yrs &7 months & 23 days  ago my life began healing and i havent had to use or drink since… its just a miracle how lucky i am to have breath… its just so nice to have a grin on my face knowing at this very moment im ok !!!

JENNIFER GIMENEZ is back on RANDOM TALK RADIO! Tune in to hear JENNIFER dish out details about her new hit show MODEL LATINA & the upcoming SOBER HOUSE 2! She is back and is BETTER THAN EVER! You can’t miss this show! 

i just finished cleaning out my skirts and shirts… wow how do we aquire so much s*&! … i tried on so many things …so many big things that no longer fit me… its kinda wierd getting rid of my big clothes … really because that girl i was for so many years built a great foundation , got humbled , lived in humility and had a great layer of protection on the outside at all times  while  being  heavy … their is nothing wrong with what size u are as long as u feel comfortable… ive gone thru different sizes and different shapes in the last 4 really 5 years …from ultra addict thin,bloated to well fat to voluptous to curvy to now fit… man its a trip to watch ur body change…the other day i came running out topless to Tom screaming “BABBBBE! LOOK! LOOOOOK! LOOOOK AT MEEEEEEE!” and typical guy behavior his eyes pop out and was like “yes” and i started crying as i stood there arms to my side “LOOK HONEY MY BOOBS DONT MORPH INTO MY BACK ANYMORE ,LIKE ONE BIG UNIBOOB/BACK!” crying like a little girl for joy…he just looked at me as was like “um good babe” so didnt get it … for me a huge victory for him just another crazy “girls are wierd moment”… so as for the clothes and my saying goodbye to the protection layer , id like to say “THANK YOU FOR PROTECTING ME WHILE I SO NEEDED YOU TO EVOLVE INTO THE WOMAN I AM BECOMING” growing up is such a trip ….i gave my mom my clothes to give to charity … hopefully it will help a woman like it did me …

TONIGHT I WILL BE ON BLOGTALK RADIO @ 7PM  PST 10PM EST ….PLEASE LISTEN IF U CAN …..

today is a good day… i am enough today… that is what i will be saying all day….no matter what comes my way … i  had a great day yesterday… i woke up thanking God for life… mickey looks so happy today …he is in his pajamas ,which he loves so much… he gets so excited when i say lets put them on … i enjoying going to bed everynite knowing i will torture Tom with everything that could possibly bug a man , like putting my fingers in his ears,nose, biting his neck,putting my hands over his face, wrapping my legs like a rubberband on his, tapping my feet,pinching his belly and tossing and turning…wow on paper that doesnt sound so HOT but its me and God bless the man he loves me … i saw my little brother last nite and it made me so happy …and saw my mama during the day inbetween all the madness i face day to day and what a gift to have that…. i wish for u the gift of laughter today…..

I AM DOING A RADIO TALK SHOW THIS FRIDAY MAY 29TH …………………………………………………….            STRONGER THAN LIFE.                                                                                                                                                                                                           

JENNIFER GIMENEZ has accomplished a lot through out her life time so far. From modeling and acting, to addiction and recovery, she has battled and overcome the many obstacles that have been thrown her way. She has learned from her mistakes and has moved on to better her life, her career & other peoples lives as well. She is not only doing it to help others, she is doing it to help herself. And in my opinion, that makes her STRONGER THAN LIFE.
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here is an article Chad Darnel wrote on gaywired.com … http://www.gaywired.com/Article.cfm?Section=165&ID=21983  tell me ur thoughts or comments please… i really think he is a brillant writer…