yes its been a while since i wrote. you  know its taken  its toll on me…not being able to write is not good for me… ill be honest i feel like im about to explode becuz ive even stop in my personal journal… i can be lame and say ive been too busy … not an exception…

im blown away by all u lovely beings… supporting, loving  and cheering me along has been a gift for me…at times i kept asking myself” why the hell am i doing this for”… I DO NOT RUN A SOBERLIVING HOME OR WORK IN RECOVERY IN MY DAILY LIFE…I WAS BROUGHT IN BECAUSE OF MY RECOVERY AND THAT IVE BEEN WHERE THESE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN…the “AWARENESS” SOBERHOUSE 1 &2: has been able to provide   addicts and alcoholics still suffering ,recovering addicts and alcoholics, family/friends /loved ones who live(d) w people like me or have ever loved one of us and have gone thru the torement of our disease w us , is really the reason i did it again…i only say this because it is people like u who email me ,come up to me,post ,comment and all other kinds of modern ways of contact tell me.. then theres “THOSE PEOPLE” ,ahh im praying for u, all these people blogging on messageboards or on tweets  myspace and facebook all this  negative stuff makes me sad… but with every good thing in life comes some bad… over all ,about 97% of the response has been positive, the support and love im getting from people is truly amazing…like everyone else in the world i have over come obstacles… i am a child of  a loving GOD and he has made me ,despite of my down falls ,a woman who has a story to tell… my experience ,strength and hope that miracles do exist…No… what u guys see on t.v is what really happened ,nothing was acted out… i may be an actress but i was dealing with seriously sick people trying to save there lives as well as me staying somewhat sane and sober thru that time in the house… this group was the toughest 8 people i could have ever imagined… it was me against them(more like the disease)…a bit too intense im really lucky i didnt get  hurt or killed…but then theres things u will not see and ohhh the power of editing….like me being super stern, did happen, but first i was kind and gentle but most of the time it was mistaken for weakness and they (most of them) kept pushing my buttons..i want u to know how grateful i am to have been able to be of service…

so LIFE and STYLE MAGAZINE is now coming out in a few weeks 2nd week in APRIL… i will keep u posted.. they pushed it back due to some scandals lately…ive been on planes and cars for the last month…i really love traveling … my schedule starts sometimes at 4:30 am and once in a while ends 2/3a.m… not everyday id lose it…im trying my best to juggle my personal life /love/friends/family,work auditions/producing a show/publicity  (etc .etc on this career section) tending to my house,gym and trying (not really) to have a tiny bit of personal time , 12 step program,speaking at 12 step meetings,working w 6 girls daily ,speaking at hospitals and institutions and working w my sponsor on me, sleeping every now and then oh and walking mickey…ill b honest with u lately im tripping out on  having God fulfill my prayers although i can tell u itll work out for u, but i got to jump and know the net will catch me, it always has before…

im really tired and have to get up in 6 hours to start my journey all over again i promise to make an effort to journal at least 4-6 times a week… i love u with all my heart………oh yes still doing intense training but i got back on salt for a hot minute we started dating off and on again ,but were off again … ill explain tomorrow

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oh my i have to say it has been an overwhelming,yet amazing week… so much is going on … ive been doing alot of publicity for SOBERHOUSE 2 and im so grateful for the unbelievable response ive been recieving… u guys are incredible… the experience was one of the most insane yet life changing one i have had… im still sober and at the end of the day thats what matters… i do believe it will help someone besides me out there…the crew and God saved me…

i trained this week 3 days w DARLENE and i did 4 days of cardio …

this Thursday LIFE AND STYLE MAGAZINE did a 4pages story on me and how i lost 100lbs… please pick one up … MARCH 18th out on stands….

i am so happy to hear from u !!! that u are reading my blogs ! really its just my journalling… regardless u are taking the time out of ur busy life to follow me and THANK YOU  from the bottom of my heart…i was asked to twitter and so i started that too so please follow me … http://twitter.com/JenniferGimenez 

last week i had alot of nite life going on… my girl MANDY SHERMAN had a birthday party at the”SAINT” on Wednesday nite , Thrusday i had an event for my friend ALLIASON MELNICK at “PLAYHOUSE” and Friday nite my friend RYAN OCONNOR had a play “RYAN O CONNOR EATS HIS FEELINGS” so it was soical nite life at its finest… during the day i was super busy with life…running around phone calls and yes the fun filled gym! TOM and I were so beat by Saturday with just one more party to attend Sunday THE SUPERBOWL! ahhh my “COLTS” lost and lost bad…i was at Toms friends house with 100 people and 90 of them were cheering for the “SAINTS” including TOM … ya and there i was all in “COLTS” gear talking all the SHIT one could until the 4th quarter… oh my ass and ego hurt !!!oh well , theres always next year… now im on to the “LAKERS”…

on Thrus i got the call… and yes my car was  finally ready after 33 days of all the crap and serious work on my car and my baby is back in my belonging… TOYOTA OF GLENDORA  was outstanding in there service of my vehicle… i would like to personally “THANK THE SERVICE DEPARTMENT DAVE, DANNY AND THE ACTUAL SERVICE TECH WHO TOOK CARE OF MY CAR”they really worked with TOM and i and now baby is ready to rock and roll…

i had my mama over for the weekend and played daughter and mommy to both her and little MICKEY…it was nice…i dressed her up in “COLTS” gear too…

SOBER HOUSE 2 IS COMING OUT IN A MONTH or less  ON VH1… ive been watching CELEBRITY REHAB 3… last weeks show was amazing for me … HEID FLIESS & TOM SIZEMORE laying there talking as a once couple made me sad…(u cant act that moment as great as they were in their reality) & TOM SIZEMORE  with his girlfriend monroe(wow how she triggers him by just being in his presence) are toxic for eachother…im a little nervous about it ,SH2…i just tried my best to do what my job entailed… although im happy to say i do look much different from even that show… due to my intensive work out ,training ,eating habits and yes DARLENE oh and me too…8-O

ok so speaking intense working out my BOSS ,DARLENE  decided to crank it up a notch … ya thanks lady… to burn 3000 or omore caleries a day 10000 ateps or more and that means much more cardio and moving me around more at all times… adjusting to that has yet made me come to another challenge…she broke down how im not eating enough to burn carbs and fat so my body starts to burn muscle … this whole new way has been so intense… mentally my body doesnt want to keep going but my mind is trying… so hence me grunting like a freak at the gym and on my treadmill (poor TOM and people around me at gym) its me really going for mind over matter… last nite i watched  “THE BIGGEST LOSER’ and so effing related to them… i felt as if i was on the show… when Juliann was yelling at the poor girl who was the “teacher” about how she was playing tough girl and then her teaching her mom and her mom on the treadmill moaning,grunting thats me…breaking thru…

A NEW DAWN IS A RISING IN ME

i was wondering how to start or rather catch up with my last few months of not blogging and instead of trying to back track , ive chosen to just allow whatever comes out to be just that… my moments…i have been working with a trainer the last month… a woman at that… ive never worked with a woman on my body before… i know it could sound odd to you because when i realized i hadnt it was odd to me…. i mean a woman would understand my body, my issues, my struggles, my challenges , my pms, my nuttiness , my just being a woman…it actually took a while , well, in believing “THE PROCESS” …theres so much more that entails working with someone… TRUST in all areas and that doesnt come easy for a girl like me….i am so grateful for her… her name is DARLENE and she truly is an incredible woman… shes on top of her game,quick,funny,fiesty, caring,kind,compassionate and doesnt let me get off the hook…. but she does it in a loving way … thus far its a blessing to have her in my life… sore ,oh hells im so sore all the time  but all the worth it… i am going to blog about the next 6 to 8  weeks we have (she) has decided to get me into tip top shape…. i dont want to fail her but its time to not fail myself in this area ….im wearing a body bug that counts calories ,logging everything i am eating , getting a menu of what to eat and   even drink daily… getting measured (yuck) ,weighed (ew) ,and body fat checked(ugh) weekly… i check in with her all day long… see what recovery has taught me is i dont have to do things on my own today or ever again if i choose…. ive searched and searched for the right person  to guide me to connecting  me to my body , what im learnening is im connecting my mind, body and spirit as a one , a whole nother level…im asking GOD to keep me teachable and open in this process… hopefully he takes the soreness out of this situation…

boy ive been a bundle of tears today…i havent cried i mean really cried in so long…so today it just pored out… i feel like a lot of “new ” things are going on in my life…ive been traveling so much lately, i actually like it ,being in different cities … except ive been around a hell of a lot of people  and at times it gets to me … i call it  wearing the mask syndrome…( smile here, be nice there, look like this , say that) …i just dont believe the b.s of it all…and after a while i wonder if people would just like me for me ( the real me)…maybe if i wasnt so tired today i wouldnt be such a debbie downer , jeez…i was recently in “Miami” … i have to say it was a magical experience for me… im hoping i can go back there and kinda make it a home away from home place…or…just keep working there … i miss my “Miami”

…like i said before so many new things are happenin in my life and im just trying to show up for it all… i have to say i suck ass real bad i kept saying i was goin to start bloggin but these days the way life is for me if i have my shoes on as i leave out the door every morning its a lucky day , so getting on the computer is a miracle when it happens …i promised quite a few people that i would blog more often and i didnt keep my word …. i dont like empty promises so sorry….mickey is so cute right now he is kissin me and sitting on my neck like a parrot this little guy is such a trip with his crazy personality u just never know what to expect well…. he always is a loving mamas boy its kinda riduclous we were out earlier and he was into just makin out and anytime people touched him he would take a deep breath and start kissin me ….like a possesive boyfriend… i loved it !!!!!!!!!!!

its been a little over a month and a half since i wrapped SOBER HOUSE 2… i have to say that this time around there was a greater growing  experience for me… i learned more about the disease of alcoholism and addiction… more about compassion,patience,anger,my body,exercise,sleep depervation,saddness,frustration,happiness,joy,the ability to push thru,accomplishment,being of sevice,tolerance and most important love …this group of courageous men and women were very sharp,intelligent,witty,kind,scared,loving sweet and tender souls…i have to say i was kept on my toes most of the time…This disease of alcohol and drugs is deadly and really isnt a joke it wants us dead…Thank You cast Dennis,Heidi,Tom,Mike,Seth,Jenny,Kendra and Kerrie Anne…i would like to Thank Dr.Drew, John Irwin,Damien Sullivan,Bob Forrest,VH1,Dr.Sophy,Will,Loesha, Noah Pollack,Bruce Toms,Rob Buchta,Alison ,Mark J,Patrick,Louie,Stephanie,Mark P,J.R ,and the crew ,CREW CREW CREW(for being my nightly rock and sense of reality)….also Tom , Sponsor, Rachel and Alec for taking care of me while i was at war!!!…i know it sounds like a lot  of people to thank but it took all our sweat, gutts and tears to do this show…

Its just been an odd time for me the last 10 days or so … first I finished a big project and 2 days later I got sick… It was my first time off in months and I was wiped out ,exhausted and run down… Then i got depressed… I also got to feel my true feelings about stuff… Loss was a big factor realizing my dads birthday was just around the corner… This year I missed him and i was trying to remember if we had certain conversations and I could’t…Man just writing that makes me sad…Its o.k  someday I may be able too remember or just have that talk with my dad… I’ll be really honest I MISS MY DAD AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO GET 30 SECONDS  WITH HIM, but the truth of the matter is my dads in heaven now …well needless to say I started realizing I havent been taking care of myself and thankfully i have tools in life on how to cope… sometimes I have to hit my head over and over again to finally realize it hurts… Im still sick now this virus is in my throat… this too shall pass… Its a new week and i believe that its a new dawn and I had some lessons to learn and to experience these new feelings such as loss in a different way this time… On another note the show I’m on Model Latina is still airing on SiTV @pm EST/PST … It was kinda hard for me to be so judgemental on these beautiful ,courages and inspiring women…

Let me know if u do watch it and what u think xoxooxox

JENNIFER GIMENEZ is back on RANDOM TALK RADIO! Tune in to hear JENNIFER dish out details about her new hit show MODEL LATINA & the upcoming SOBER HOUSE 2! She is back and is BETTER THAN EVER! You can’t miss this show! 

TONIGHT I WILL BE ON BLOGTALK RADIO @ 7PM  PST 10PM EST ….PLEASE LISTEN IF U CAN …..

today is a good day… i am enough today… that is what i will be saying all day….no matter what comes my way … i  had a great day yesterday… i woke up thanking God for life… mickey looks so happy today …he is in his pajamas ,which he loves so much… he gets so excited when i say lets put them on … i enjoying going to bed everynite knowing i will torture Tom with everything that could possibly bug a man , like putting my fingers in his ears,nose, biting his neck,putting my hands over his face, wrapping my legs like a rubberband on his, tapping my feet,pinching his belly and tossing and turning…wow on paper that doesnt sound so HOT but its me and God bless the man he loves me … i saw my little brother last nite and it made me so happy …and saw my mama during the day inbetween all the madness i face day to day and what a gift to have that…. i wish for u the gift of laughter today…..

I AM DOING A RADIO TALK SHOW THIS FRIDAY MAY 29TH …………………………………………………….            STRONGER THAN LIFE.                                                                                                                                                                                                           

JENNIFER GIMENEZ has accomplished a lot through out her life time so far. From modeling and acting, to addiction and recovery, she has battled and overcome the many obstacles that have been thrown her way. She has learned from her mistakes and has moved on to better her life, her career & other peoples lives as well. She is not only doing it to help others, she is doing it to help herself. And in my opinion, that makes her STRONGER THAN LIFE.
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