its really my favorite time of the year… fall /winter is so gorgeous all over really! so much is going on … alot of  growth  comes from  growing pains they say, but it doesnt always feel so good. im confused if its me or if its just what happens in this wonderful thing called life…am i doing the right thing? am i enough? is this Gods will… i should just stop and let be what will be (i guess)….i watched Marley and Me  all the while holding Mickey screaming ,crying  with snot dripping in my house last nite.i first saw the movie on a plane (poor person next to me) …. oh my i was a mess on that plane…. i would of embarrassed anyone who knows me … that movie just gets me …i have to say Mickey just fasinates me … he means so much to me … really the one thing that has loved me so unconditonally fat or skinny, happy or sad, ugly or pretty  he just looks at me like i am ruler of  his  universe if i could be have the woman he thinks i am on a daily basis i would rule my own universe….he shows me what uncondional love is and looks like… at the end of the day we all just want to be loved… thats it just that simple… i want to be loved …